1.11.11

well that is the first and last that that date will ever be... this year will be a year of many firsts... last year was a year of many lasts...

when paul and i realized how our lives are really gonna change after having a baby we mourned many things that we know will never happen again... a trip by ourselves (truly by ourselves without having another person on the back of our minds... worrying... wondering how that little person is doing)... a life spent worrying about "just us" (a little selfish i know but really really fun sometimes)... staying up late (knowing you'll be able to sleep in or catch up on missed sleep)... and it could go on and on...

it was sad at the time... like you are going to lose yourself... completely and imperatively...


i can't say that we have completely recovered nor have we found who we are yet as parents as people who are learning to be selfless but we are looking forward to many things... first birthdays :-) ... first teeth... first taste of beef... first vacation as a family... first flying experience... first steps... first big glimpse into how we are going to serve people in Austin as a family... we are excited